How Self Hatred Builds

A recent personal post on Facebook was about a moment of self-hatred over something as simple as my blood iron being a bit low.  For someone who hasn't faced the demons of self-hatred or self-anger it seems extreme.  Some who have lived with low self-confidence might...

My Relationship with Tony Stark

Today 2 friends on social media were discussing how modern technology has made us further apart and closer.  I see both, but the more I thought about it, and something else that has been on my mind, I realize I have a  relatable relationship with Tony Stark, (Iron...

Life Changed, But What Do I Tell You?

We should do lunch you say. Catch up you say. It's been years my friend. We are different people than we were then. I know I was very different. It's been lifetimes since then, even if the actual number is closer to 15. To borrow from Star Trek... "you were and always...

Yea, I have Trust Issues

The other day a friend posted the following question on Facebook, "Do you have someone whom you tell your secrets to?" I don't, well unless we count here.  This is about as honest as I get. A few days later someone posted, "Do you have someone you can call whenever...

Four Panic Attacks

Four days ago, I had a panic attack.  Not my first one.  I've had 4 in the past 15 months. The first one was actually the same time a then friend was having one.  He went to the hospital with his.  I was 4 hours drive away, not knowing he was having one, and yet I was...

Birthday Plans and a Star Trek Theme

It all started Friday. "What are your plans for Memorial Day weekend? Any birthday plans?" No.  No plans.  I don't know anyone grilling.  Don't know of anyone doing anything fun. Monday: "What are your plans for Memorial Day? Any birthday plans?" No.  No plans.  I...

Always use the safety, or you might lose your thumb

Always use the safety or you could cut off your thumb, like I did. ok, ok, I didn't cut off all of my thumb. I just cut off part of it. The side of my thumb. Why? "Because I woke up this morning and thought to myself, 'Self, you know what we should do today?  Cut off...

I Was in a Seinfeld Episode

Ok, I wasn't really in a Seinfeld Episode, but after telling a friend about it, I suddenly realized I was in a way.  And we got to laughing about how funny this whole episode would be if it had been Elaine instead of me. This actually happened a few months ago.  While...

Random Thoughts

It's not that I didn't want to write daily, but I have a lot of things I do each day and my brain is random, so I run around doing way too many things... Plus life has been changing a lot lately.  See I got behind on the 30 day blog challenge, so I totally thought...