Stressed = Desserts Backwards Right?

Posted by MJ on Apr 24, 2012 in Rockstar | 0 comments

I changed the theme here… It was supposed to be part of the introduction to the new business, but that kept getting delayed and why I kept thinking … I will be writing a post soon…

Desserts…

Three flavors of ice cream are in freezer.  It’s been a while since I had that many flavors… yet each is vegetarian, and low sugar.  They use bananas as the base, 2 have yogurt and all 3 use enough Almond Milk that my blender will blend the ingredients into a soft structure.  1 has berries and vanilla, one has peanut butter, the last does not have yogurt but it has spinach, mint & choco chips.

One grandad was diabetic, one hypoglycemic and I have a sugar craving that is dangerous with that kind of familial history.  You tell me that cheesecake is too rich to eat alone, and I probably can eat it alone…. so sugars are being replaced with vegetarian, vegan and raw recipes modified to my acceptance of chocolate chips instead of cacoa nips.  Blending these things would be much easier with a Vitamix…. except that is $499, a Blendtec is a bit cheaper but doesn’t have a 7 year warranty… so I’d rather pony up… $499…

Stressed

Except for the fact that I want to go on a fabulous trip to see the private native side of Hawaii… my dream vacation, and it’s out of my current budget.  Admittedly that is higher than the $499 of the Vitamix… (TY PastryChefOnline for helping with that decision) but it’s also higher than the $50 a month to join a Martial Arts class that I’d like to join, but can’t currently spend money on…

Instead I debate $56 for Heartworm meds for 2 cats and 2 dogs or $65 for 2 pairs of walking shoes because the 2 pairs I bought last year (wearing alternate days) are worn out.

Silent Social Media, Loud Restructuring

Posted by MJ on Feb 26, 2012 in Rockstar | 4 comments

Today at 2am I wrote on FB that I would be silent on Social Media until mid-week.  Well, that was good in theory.  Yet within 15 minutes of waking up at 7 am, I realized that would not be possible, I will be off Social Media until at least Sunday.

Please understand I will miss you, my wonderful friends and family!  If you want to shoot me a Skype msg, email or text, please do!  (You should be able to find those on FB or just look for me on skype) I would appreciate the love. No, I lie, I need the love right now.  So please just a quick ((HUGS))  or thinking of you… etc would be greatly appreciated, please understand if I don’t respond.

Yet this is currently my schedule for the next week… plan, plot, restructure, refine, redefine, strength, move, rebuild, and when I am not doing those I will be doing client work.  Some sleep, some goofing off just to give the brain a rest then back to it.  World domination is extremely hard work…

A Week of Tears Answered My Questions

Posted by MJ on Jan 23, 2012 in My Truth | 2 comments

With one statement she brought me to tears. It wouldn’t be the last time I cried that weekend, nor that week.  And for days it seemed tears were always on the edge of spilling over.

Accidentally stepping on a ball the week before, smashing into a wall so hard it left bruises on my shoulder, knee and head (that order of seriousness) and twisting my back muscles in attempt to save myself, I didn’t cry.  In fact later I laughed over it…  (as much as you can laugh after being very sore from hitting a wall.)

What did she say that brought me to tears?

“You need to stop running after everything… you have too many goals” Stephanie Raindow Bell was doing some spiritual coaching.  Renee Corbett is my work coach, so this was different. Stephanie told me her goals and how she was told to focus on one.

What is Your 2012 One Word Theme?

Posted by MJ on Jan 9, 2012 in Inner Rockstar | 0 comments

Ok, in the last post I talked about my one word theme for 2011. Before I tell you my word for 2012, do you understand the one word theme?

It was something I read on Mari Smith’s blog years ago. But the basic concept is that for many of us it is pretty hard to make resolutions that you will still be doing a month from now, never mind a few months or a year.

The one word theme gives you a touchstone that you can decide and factor into the things you do. You can use it to change multiple areas of your life.   Or use it as a guide, something you want to align yourself with to grow throughout the year.

2010 I believe my word was Growth.
2011  the word was Change.
2012 This year my word is Devoted.

On FB someone asked about one word themes and someone responded their word was “Devoted” the word resonated within me.

Friendships and Standing Up For Myself

Posted by MJ on Jan 7, 2012 in Inner Rockstar, Uncategorized | 4 comments

Friendships have been on my mind quite a lot recently.

Seems my friendships are in flux right now. In 2010 I lost ones who had been my best friends prior. They did not accept that I changed, so they no longer speak to me. Guess that means our lives changed too much to have a future in common.

Now I have new friends, although only a few “close” ones, but we are close online, not physically.  This means currently I am trying to decide how to rebuild my inner circle and what makes a good friend.

“We’re friends aren’t we?”

There is someone who keeps asking me this. Each time “Questioner” asked, I felt the ranking of “yes” slip further and further away. Truth is, I’ve never felt comfortable around “Questioner.” There is a coldness and yet smugness.

Which Story To Tell….

Posted by MJ on Dec 20, 2011 in My Truth | 1 comment

To speak, or not to speak…. that is the question.

Perhaps it is not which option is right, but which option is the best for the most people. In the Wrath of Khan, Spock dies… to the words of “The good of the many outweigh the good of the few or the one.”

Yet while the story could help others, it almost literally destroyed me last time I tried to confess it. Last time I lost “friends,” (although there’s a funny story in it), left my church for years and nearly did something very stupid.

So while I think the story needs telling, now that I consider the previous cost, I don’t think I am strong enough to bear that cost right now.

I Choose to See the Good

Posted by MJ on Dec 1, 2011 in My Truth | 0 comments

Yesterday I told you about the day after Thanksgiving.

While it felt good to see him again after a year (to the day), and even kiss him, it felt pretty crummy to keep his touches appropriate. It felt good that he said he’d like to see me again and was planning future dates (long distance) but it felt crummy because it seemed like something he was doing so I’d agree to invite him home. It felt really crummy that he cussed when I left, but felt good that I went home alone.

But calling me repeatedly between 2:22 and 2:58, waking to find that he unfriended me. And when I called at 8 am, it seems all the phone calls were to tell me how we “didn’t see each other” and shouldn’t say that cause his family questioned him, (at 2am?) and he unfriended me to keep me from saying anything else.

Of all the things that happened this phone call bothered me the most. So I emailed a couple girl-friends and asked their opinions of what in the world had happened and was I wrong…

Well, they all agreed he acted like a jerk and I shouldn’t feel bad. And agreed it hurts to be turned into the villain. They gave different reasons for why he did it, which I needed, because I am a woman and I wanted to hear different opinions to decide what my truth was…

But here is the truth…