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Courage for Change

Posted by MJ on Oct 9, 2011 in Life | 0 comments

Change is not something easy to do. Yet, how else can we grow?

So here I sit, looking at some changes in my life.  These changes are temporary, permanent, now, soon, and sometime in the future.  These are based on some things that happened this week.  Monday writing, Wednesday a visit by dear friend who is special to me, and Thursday someone I have known for a long time who is becoming a friend.

Temporary

If you there is a deadline for these changes to end, why not embrace them for the sake of seeing what will happen.  Perhaps the change will be hard.  Perhaps it will be easy.  Perhaps it will mean a time of utter chaos.  Yet there is an end, and then your life goes back…

Too often we say no.  It’s hard work.  I don’t care that it is short term… it’s hard.

I said yes to a temporary change.  It means that I must work harder than ever during work hours and learn to ‘take time away.’  It means massive changes at my house and massive changes to my schedule, meaning going to bed earlier, getting up earlier.  But I have been working to improve the going to bed at a reasonable time anyway!

Permanent

Permanent changes may be bad or good.  A permanent change however is permanent thus the name.  Thus no matter what it is, good needs to be found within the experience. You are going to need to live with it, so make it good.

Other times you need to make a “permanent change” even a small one just to start moving towards your dream.  This means you might do something like I did.  Create a book, but not the “dream book” this means it makes the adventure easy.

The dream of becoming a published author is close to becoming true.  I don’t know if I should do a push to get this book in front of as many people as possible or to just release it and let it fly.  Sounds strange, yet the goal here was to get published.  Basically put it in my world.  Yet it is not just my world, it is Kelly’s as well.  As she is my writing partner and I want her success, perhaps I should push it for her.

Now, Soon and Sometime

Some changes happen

Dreams of Car Washes, Books and Needing Success

Posted by MJ on Mar 6, 2011 in Life | 0 comments

It seems my unguarded post last week, was enjoyed. While it was fueled by ADHD, it was natural and a bit of my weird humor unleashed. So this week, and possibly all future posts on my blog will be less serious than I am elsewhere, because of course it my blog.

Unfortunately I am a bit stressed. My writing muse has been “ill” ever since I got ill the first week of February.  Like I said last week, I enter writing contests, but not what I need for 365 Online Tips nor the book that was edging closer to being finished.

Could you be afraid of finishing your book?

Of course, but this seems a bit more. This is a fear of failure. Now, before you tell me everyone is afraid of failure, or what if I succeed wildly beyond my dreams… I am a dreamer. I dream big. I dreamed of an overloaded WordPress class, and no one showed up. I dreamed of selling tons of WP ebooks, and only sold a few.

So I am afraid.

Afraid of failing again.  :(

Everyone fails, you say. But I have failed again and again and again. I am ready for success. This is my BIG dream to write books, to be a multi-time best selling author.  But right now my big goal is to be able to buy things once again.  I am tired of believing “this will work” and it fails. I feel like a failure.

I love washing my car.

I love black as pitch tires.

I love the workout while washing my car.

It dawned on me yesterday, how much I truly miss the simple act of washing my car.

Just don’t tell the missing friend.  She sent multiple hate texts this week, including how she met my ex-husband, his wife and daughter (knowing I miscarried ours and how I wanted children). All responses result in many more mean texts. So for every text that comes in,  I will tell 2 people how wonderful they are. They become happy, which makes me happy. WIN!

But what about the other failure?

I need some success. Like the above where I counter the mean act with kindness, I need to counter these past failures with successes, but I need success now, not a slow one. So I am aiming for creating websites for dog breeders and trainers, or horses or cats.

My feelings of failure currently is the inability to buy things I need and there is something I want and I have 3 months to get ready for it. While I can and will barter it has expenses. It’s something I will share later. That and I need money / success now. So I envision loads of people sending dog trainers/ breeders to me who need websites.

Yes, I live in my own world but they know me here.

Hope you are having a rocking week

Live, Laugh, Love,

MJ Schrader

PS. If you want to leave a note of encouragement, I’d sure appreciate it.

And if you are feeling like a failure, know this, you are a rockstar. Even on days you doubt it, you are here for a reason, you are a wonderful creation and you make the world a better place. When someone hurts you, retaliate in love, to that person or others. You deserve love, so expect it.