Posts Tagged "changing life"

The Changes of Marky Mark Wahlberg

Posted by on Oct 22, 2011 in My Truth | 0 comments

The other day, I was going to tell you about Marky Mark Walberg. When my good friend visited, we watched Four Brothers with Mark Walberg. Way back in the 1990s you probably remember a young rapper named Marky Mark.

That was not his name. Yet that was the name he went by. He pushed himself as a rapper, and was known for that world. After a while he made a slight change and became known as a Calvin Klein model. Wearing his pushed down pants we saw the tops of his boxers that sported that CK label.

Later he became Mark Wahlberg the actor.

Mark WalhbergThe actor completely reinvented himself from the rapper of old, thus the new name. Other rappers have reinvented themselves as actors as well, some have shed names, some merely shed that old identity. People reinvent themselves as well, yet so often we hold them to the same measuring stick that was used before. This is total inaccurate and unfair for them and for us as well.

See they have changed, and we choose to see the old person, we are denying them the ability to show us their full colors. For years I was both shy and extremely introverted. It seemed risky and not worthwhile to me to let others inside, for they would seek out ways to hurt me and I felt weak.

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Courage for Change

Posted by on Oct 9, 2011 in Life | 0 comments

Change is not something easy to do. Yet, how else can we grow?

So here I sit, looking at some changes in my life.  These changes are temporary, permanent, now, soon, and sometime in the future.  These are based on some things that happened this week.  Monday writing, Wednesday a visit by dear friend who is special to me, and Thursday someone I have known for a long time who is becoming a friend.

Temporary

If you there is a deadline for these changes to end, why not embrace them for the sake of seeing what will happen.  Perhaps the change will be hard.  Perhaps it will be easy.  Perhaps it will mean a time of utter chaos.  Yet there is an end, and then your life goes back…

Too often we say no.  It’s hard work.  I don’t care that it is short term… it’s hard.

I said yes to a temporary change.  It means that I must work harder than ever during work hours and learn to ‘take time away.’  It means massive changes at my house and massive changes to my schedule, meaning going to bed earlier, getting up earlier.  But I have been working to improve the going to bed at a reasonable time anyway!

Permanent

Unlock Your Personal PowerPermanent changes may be bad or good.  A permanent change however is permanent thus the name.  Thus no matter what it is, good needs to be found within the experience. You are going to need to live with it, so make it good.

Other times you need to make a “permanent change” even a small one just to start moving towards your dream.  This means you might do something like I did.  Create a book, but not the “dream book” this means it makes the adventure easy.

The dream of becoming a published author is close to becoming true.  I don’t know if I should do a push to get this book in front of as many people as possible or to just release it and let it fly.  Sounds strange, yet the goal here was to get published.  Basically put it in my world.  Yet it is not just my world, it is Kelly’s as well.  As she is my writing partner and I want her success, perhaps I should push it for her.

Now, Soon and Sometime

Some changes happen

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The Invisible Pain

Posted by on Sep 26, 2011 in My Truth | 2 comments

I was hoping the doctor fixed my ear infection in the spring.  I had a sneaky suspicion that the Eustachian Tube was still blocked, but I wasn’t certain.  Now as the weather cools down I know it is.  It’s like someone hits me upside the head with a brick then puts their hand on my ear and neck on that side and holds them down.  I feel the pain all the way beneath my ear, down the side of my neck and I’d say the pain stops there.  Yesterday I noticed the muscles on that side of my shoulder are so knotted that it’s almost as big as a fist….

Probably need someone to rub that out.  Except there is no one who will, unless I pay a masseuse.  ”Hey, you should go to the doctor about your ear.”

The ear and the masseuse require money.  There are other things that are higher priority that require money.  ”But you’re in pain.”

Yup, but it will change.  And Doctors well, they didn’t fix it before.  They don’t believe in natural methods and I do.

Besides what is pain?

When I was younger I had a weird fear of being invisible.  Perhaps because oddly enough, I was.

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Changing One Person

Posted by on Sep 7, 2011 in Relationships | 0 comments

Here is the deal… I’ve been thinking about this for quite a while. The way I see it, there are only two truths in this world. Once you learn those, accept those and live by those, everything else will fall into place.  I said I would discuss both in this post, but I will only be able to discuss one, otherwise this post runs way too long.

This is not to say that it is an easy decision to make. The truths are not easy to accept, to learn from and implement. In some ways it will be like trying to break an addiction and all the difficult choices one must make to make a change in life. It also means making sometimes minute by minute choices.

Choices

There are some who say once you become an addict there will never change. Many addiction places tell you that you will fail. If you tell people that they will fail, are you really going to be surprised when they do?

Seriously people; we all make choices, to succeed or fail … for that

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Special Anniversary

Posted by on Jul 20, 2011 in My Truth | 1 comment

Today is a birthday and anniversary.

Not an anniversary with someone, but an anniversary nonetheless.  It is also the very same day that became the Maine Coon Cat’s birthday.  The vet marked it as Lilo’s birthday when she first went to the vet at 6 weeks old. (I had found her 2 weeks before)

Maine Coon CatToday, she is 3, and it’s been 3 years since I realized how much my life has changed. But change is hard to see, and for those who are just getting to know me you may not know how much change there was….

In 2003, I woke from a dark life, and my hand bears a reminder of that day. Perhaps a scar does not sound like the best reminder, yet it constantly reminds me that I need to help others. Even if that idea did not occur to me until later.

That day was July 20th 2008.

Looking at my life, I realized it was not where it needed to be. This was the day I decided to

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