Silent Social Media, Loud Restructuring
Today at 2am I wrote on FB that I would be silent on Social Media until mid-week. Well, that was good in theory. Yet within 15 minutes of waking up at 7 am, I realized that would not be possible, I will be off Social Media until at least Sunday.
Please understand I will miss you, my wonderful friends and family! If you want to shoot me a Skype msg, email or text, please do! (You should be able to find those on FB or just look for me on skype) I would appreciate the love. No, I lie, I need the love right now. So please just a quick ((HUGS)) or thinking of you… etc would be greatly appreciated, please understand if I don’t respond.
Yet this is currently my schedule for the next week… plan, plot, restructure, refine, redefine, strength, move, rebuild, and when I am not doing those I will be doing client work. Some sleep, some goofing off just to give the brain a rest then back to it. World domination is extremely hard work…
Read MoreApril Showers Bring May Flowers
That’s what the old stories of our youth say. Wonder if April changes bring May ranges? Hopefully May ranges would mean I’d have a house with room to range around outside…
But April was full of changes. After the seminar in March I got a couple clients who wanted websites built. Then I got a phone call from an old friend. He needed help with pictures not showing on this website. Well, it took a few minutes of digging to say “your server is screwed up.”
A few more things he had me check, then asked if I needed a job. Suddenly I was gainfully employed doing something I love to do. Then I was asked to jump into the deep end of the adult pool, and realized that I had not been living up to my potential.
A few days passed. I asked a simple question that had been bugging me for a while, to someone who once treated me special and had stopped. Gifts and promises to call on X day were as real as mists upon the wind. So “Do you love me?” was answered with “if someone else has made you those promises go on.”
Read MoreA Lot of Espresso and Contests
So, this is what my brain is like on ADHD. This will be mostly unedited other than I do like to spell correctly. Please read this… first http://theoatmeal.com/comics/misspelling
This was my response when Darcy Vail posted it. It’s definitely weird that I have to ride a manatee to school. But he can hold his liquor better than the panda bear. We both oddly posted the link today… so yes I will be editing any grievous grammatical errors.
Why? Because I will be a multi-time best selling author. If I survive.
See today I am in full ADHD, I have been writing about espresso machines and X-men statues and more espresso machines. Espresso machines produce caffeine which is supposed to “wake” people up, however for me when I reach that kind of level, it causes arrhythmia. To me, who has given up sodas, most flavored beverages, coffee has become my thing. I can’t say it’s an addiction because I go without it at least twice a week.
But today I realized that an americano is roughly like a coffee, and an espresso machine can make cappuccino, which I like. It can make other drinks as well, but I don’t know if I like them. See I am researching espresso machines for a review site. They wanted 10 reviews, which has meant a lot of learning about the machines. Note A Lot. 1) Space between A and Lot. 2) I knew espresso machines were at coffee shops.
Athletic and musical talents are not mine… instead I am the person who could only play dodgeball. This was due to vast experience at PE with a ball coming rapidly at my head with the words “DODGE THIS!! YOU SUCK AT (insert game with a ball)” being screamed. Dodging was easier because if I attempted to catch said ball I’d somehow hit myself with it.
But I am competitive.
Yes, I can deny it. “Yes, that’s so cool you just made 50 baskets in a row! And I made one, which was a freak deal of how the ball bounced off that car way over there.” While secretly inside I am screaming I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU! Which I don’t really, but you are no longer on my Christmas list.
Because I want to be able to play sports. I can write. So I choose to fill up my life with random writing contests.
- You want 200 articles? Ok.
- You want 8 lens in 8 weeks and I joined 4 weeks in? Ok!
- You want 10 reviews on a mysterious machine that makes concentrated (espresso) liquid of the gods? OKAY!
- You want me to write 100 words on every Zazzle design? OK!
- Look another blog contest! OKAY!
Because the 200 articles, 8 lenses, 10 reviews, and my personal writing are not enough writing obviously.
See, apparently in addition to being quite horrible at sports and music, I rather suck at getting good jobs and dating. Although Michael Buble just told me “I haven’t met you yet” but considering he’s dating a model I think I am out of luck. He’s actually the 2nd Canadian that has caused me heartbreak, the other one is Matthew Perry. 
The Law of Attraction peeps tell me to believe. Visualize something and hold it firm and it will become reality. BULL CACA
Ok, if you have read this blog, you know I have wanted to be a writer since I was 5. The dream got squished. (picturing bug smooshed out like an ink blot) Yet, there was another dream, that was equally as vivid. It involves loads of numbers… so let’s do this.
At college I was going to meet a nice, sweet, smart, guy. After we graduated we’d get married, around 23. We’d each find jobs we loved. I’d work my job for 30 years because it would be a job I loved and made me feel fulfilled and happy, although I would have time off to have some children. 3 children, it’d be like a sandwich, 2 girls with a boy in between or vice versa. They should be between the ages of 13 and 4. We’d live in a 4 bedroom house on a one acre property with trees and a beautiful goldfish pond. We’d have 2 cars, 1 truck. 2 dogs 1 cat. We would happily celebrate anniversaries together and have wonderful family vacations.
This was the way things were supposed to be. I knew it. I believed it.
Jobs were far from fulfilling. The one job that was, had the problem all of them did. Bosses that yelled, screamed and called me evil wicked names. The marriage was a bust. Dating? Well, my boyfriend is 700 miles away and we see each other once every 4 months. WHOO HOO!! Romantic!
Michael Buble music is incredibly romantic. And it kills me that money is tight, and that I can’t afford his MP3 albums but then the songs I love seem to be scattered across various ones which makes me unhappy.
So I find another contest.
This has become my solution to everything. I don’t know how I am going to pay this bill. OH, I know! Since there are no jobs available I’ll get in another writing contest. Now you are saying no jobs? Well, okay nursing and trucking. Both require training. I have 2 dogs and 2 cats. The outside dog is a male with 70 pounds of “mark/pee on everything.” Yes, I do not want them in a truck with me, and I don’t want to leave them. The nursing? My solution to everything would be to vomit on it.
I suck at jobs. OO CONTEST!
Why contests? I figure I can write until the world drowns in my writing. Since my writing is everywhere people will have no choice but to use it as currency. Then I can pay bills and I can get out of this house into that 4 bedroom house on 1 acre and a goldfish pond. Except now that will be a GREEN LOW ENERGY 2 bedroom, guest suite, office, and theater room, 3 bath on 1 acre with 2 English Cocker Spaniels and 2 cats and a goldfish pond.
All I need to do … IS ENTER ANOTHER CONTEST!!
Or say the word. See I was never going to get a divorce. Never going to own a cell phone. Never going to stay in this house for 7 years. So I will NEVER MAKE $500 MILLION A YEAR.
So there.
I didn’t plan to write this much… but it’s great prep for the next contest.
Live, Love, RANDOM!
MJ
Read More17 A Book That Changed My Views
Today is another of the 30 Days of Truth Prompt for Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. Yes the last post was 14, I got out of order. 15 & 16 were basically the same so I skipped 16. Next is Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage, that will be January 4th.
Personally I believe every good book should change your views. Even fiction should change your views on things, such as it may change how you view vampires who sparkle rather than reduce to ashes in the sun. Blade vs Cullens…
Okay, maybe not about sparkly vampires….
You still can learn about interactions between people. Perhaps it might change what you think about a religion, a particular people, or how you act with your family or friends. You should always be learning. If you are not learning you are not living.
Is there a book that impacted you more?
Well, there’s a horse of a different color…. In that case, I must confess to 4 Hour Work Week by Tim Ferriss. While not all of the book is practical there are a lot of life lessons to be had. Developing a business so you can continue to work overtime and never be able to leave it (especially if you can’t even leave it for a vacation) is not a practical solution.
80/20 Rule
It also taught me a great deal about the 80/20 rule. While I had heard of it, I never really put the rule together with life. In it 20% of what bothers you, causes 80% of your pain. Therefore by reducing or eliminating that 20% you decrease your pain.
Relax now
He also pointed out the importance of mini retirements. Taking time throughout life to retire and learn from those retirements rather than to wait. This is brilliant wisdom because we have no guarantees and this means we get to enjoy life as we are able.
These are incredibly simple concepts yet we focus on the wrong details through much of life. I can’t say the book changed my view, but gave me greater understanding. Also there is much of the book that depends on different circumstances. But “knowledge is to know that a tomato is a fruit, but wisdom is to know not to put one in a fruit salad.“ This means understanding what will work for you.
Learn, Read, Love,
MJ Schrader
Read More14 ~ I Feel Deceived
Whoops I got out of order… I skipped Day 14 and 15 of 30 Days of Truth. Day 14 prompt is → A hero that has let you down. (letter) Day 15 and Day 16 are basically the same. So I will cover Day 14 today and Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something on December 30th.
While I am supposed to write a letter to a hero who has let me down, the problem is I have been mostly realistic, even as a kid realizing that people make mistakes. There are people I called hero and decided that they no longer were worthy of that kind of ranking. There is a recent disappointment however.
Dear …. ,
You called me, saying “Don’t worry. I won’t let you fail.” I said, “This is my insurance payment.” You insisted, you’d help. You told me I was over-thinking. You are like family, your family said trust you, you gave me a list of people to contact, so …
Days later, my first prospect wants rates. You tell me where to look. I look. That state won’t be covered for days. Making me appear a minor fool in front the prospect, then major fool moments later when I realize there are NO plans to cover that area. The people you told me to contact are not in areas covered. Where I have friends is not covered.
I am getting frustrated. You say you’ll call, you tell me to learn better sales techniques. The policies and procedures says, I can only talk to people I know, who aren’t in areas that are covered, I can’t write about it and nor use social media.
After a month I tell you I feel abandoned and deceived. You called before, a couple times. Then none of the areas you said were covered are. You said you would call and never did. Your only offer to help is to talk to your upline. You act upset, like I didn’t try, because I refused to call a my boyfriend’s nephew whom I barely know and with whom I want a good relationship. Yet I tried, but I feel deceived… You knew this was my insurance payment and you offer to teach me better sales techniques when I can only sell to people I know and no one is in the areas. I respected you. I put my trust in you. Your family said you would not let me fail…
you failed me.
It also means you do not respect how I feel about someone. The importance of being able to make money to see him was explained. I wonder if you cared about me at all. Love is my rule, so I love you, but this does not mean trust …
Now, I went back to an old job. Could you surprise me and support me in this? Even better participate? It would help renew my faith in you.
Love,
MJ
Read MoreViva La Vida
Welcome to my personal blog. This blog in various forms and formats has been in existence since 2000. As for why this is called Viva La Vida, it means "live the life" in Spanish, but it is a salute to living life to the fullest. And my hope is that you will live life to the fullest!
This is my personal blog! So viva la vida with me!!