Posts Tagged "self discovery"

What is Your 2012 One Word Theme?

Posted by MJ on Jan 9, 2012 in Inner Rockstar | 0 comments

Ok, in the last post I talked about my one word theme for 2011. Before I tell you my word for 2012, do you understand the one word theme?

It was something I read on Mari Smith’s blog years ago. But the basic concept is that for many of us it is pretty hard to make resolutions that you will still be doing a month from now, never mind a few months or a year.

The one word theme gives you a touchstone that you can decide and factor into the things you do. You can use it to change multiple areas of your life.   Or use it as a guide, something you want to align yourself with to grow throughout the year.

2010 I believe my word was Growth.
2011  the word was Change.
2012 This year my word is Devoted.

On FB someone asked about one word themes and someone responded their word was “Devoted” the word resonated within me.

Which Story To Tell….

Posted by MJ on Dec 20, 2011 in My Truth | 1 comment

To speak, or not to speak…. that is the question.

Perhaps it is not which option is right, but which option is the best for the most people. In the Wrath of Khan, Spock dies… to the words of “The good of the many outweigh the good of the few or the one.”

Yet while the story could help others, it almost literally destroyed me last time I tried to confess it. Last time I lost “friends,” (although there’s a funny story in it), left my church for years and nearly did something very stupid.

So while I think the story needs telling, now that I consider the previous cost, I don’t think I am strong enough to bear that cost right now.

12 Current Things about Me

Posted by MJ on Oct 17, 2011 in My Truth | 4 comments

Sadly I’ve been upset the past week or so, things have gotten to where they were going really cool, I was really excited about changes in life.  I was so excited that I forgot the blog post to share was going to cover Marky Mark Walberg… and how his name changed and how your life changes and how we go through all this stuff, and I forgot.

Then another article was going to cover just do it anyway, at which point I got slapped in the face with fish …  –>

So here are some things that are on my mind, and maybe by dumping these off my shoulders it will cheer me up and maybe you can understand this corner of Loco and Logical.

How I Became Spock…

Posted by MJ on May 31, 2011 in Relationships | 2 comments

Sadly we interpret things through very strange lenses as children. We catch statements and make them our truths even when they are meant to be a statement or information for the time. Things change, and statements said are sometimes said carelessly.

Thus it was, yet I took it to heart. My heart has always been soft.  Life has taught me to be tough and so I can be, but beneath is a soft heart, full of passion and compassion. Yet as a child, my heart was prone to crying when scolded which was followed with “Stop crying or I’ll give you a reason to cry.”

Along the way the words became twisted, especially when the emerging hormones of teenage life took over. It was bad enough, feeling out of control, wanting to cry one minute and be happy another. The “Stop crying” ruled me, and watching Star Trek I realized that Vulcans had emotions long ago, and learned to control them.  Nothing said it could not be done inside myself.  This made sense to a child who had always been far more serious than her age.

So I learned to stop crying.

At 18, a guy finally was interested in me. As the first guy interested in me, I ignored all our differences. He sexually assaulted me one day. Since it wasn’t rape, I didn’t know what to do. I told no one, but hate raged. I locked it down, and with it, love.

It seems emotions are yen and yang, in my youth I did not see the alternative loss.